Blogging after ages!
Why didn't I for so long?
I don't know!
Why am I, now?
I don't know!
Funny how negativity settles down in our lives in such a way that negativity itself takes one over. Anything that is repeated many times over becomes the truth ... an old saying. I've heard this before and seriously wondered how can that be possible? But now, when I see my life, I feel as if the saying was meant for me.
A soft skill trainer by profession, my job is to motivate people. I do it so naturally! Trainees swear by me because of the way I manage to make every problem in their lives look so simple! In the training room, when I talk about all the positive things that exist, I see the amazement in people's eyes. I then question myself, who is the real me?
You know what, I don't know!
Always beleived in the saying,"Don't go the way life takes you. Take life the way you go." I know we were born to live and not living because we were born. But will I ever be able to implement this in reality?
I don't know!
Haven't gone to work today. Thought I'll spend some time with myself. Sat with a pen and paper and decided to challenge myself with all the questions on my mind. I did. I was surprised to find that I can't answer my own questions! Am I really so weak? Then who is this person who gets into me when I'm out there in the world motivating everyone possible?
Funny, but I don't know!
The irony is, I like to believe that I'm not a loser. I want to take control over myself. I want to live life as per my terms. The desire kills me. However, every time I want to look for an answer within myself, those three words creep up from somewhere. How I want to fight it! I want those three words to become invisible! I want to live life to the fullest. Will I ever be able to?
I don't know!
Madhura,
ReplyDeleteYou answered your questions in your own blog...negativity is such a state of mind that covers ones eyes with the wrong thoughts at the wrong time...tell me something...How can you preach something effectively, if you dont believe it? Believe me, you believe it, in the sub conscious level. You just have to bring it and apply it to your life and I am sure you are strong enough to do it. Why dont you take this up as a challenge?
It may sound little strange, but the answer is always hidden in the question : ) When we used to solve mathematics question, we were reading the question, many time, because we knew the hints to solve it are hidden in the question itself. The sooner one finds the hints, the sooner he is able to solve it.
ReplyDeleteLife is actually very simple, its we who make it complex. Too much thinking ruins everything, we make things complex, because most of the time we don't actually resolve things we are confusing things.
We are conditioned with a lot of sayings and ideas.. and we base our lives on that. There is and cannot be a set formula for succeeding in everthing in life. Why does our society always teaches us to be a "God Fearing Man". Why can't we say, be a "God Loving Man". We say, a person excells by experience, but we have Sachin Tendulkar, who shook everyone at young age of 16. We were told man is destined to live on earth, but we have aeroplanes and we are flying. Why do we need to follow the rules? If rules don't satusfy you, don't follow them. Break them!
We know all the questions and we know all the answers, but we just don't solve them. We are hesitant or may be fearful or don't want to break the age old rules. We are satisfied the way things are going or learn to look satisfied!
Good post.
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