Does anyone know what it’s like to be in pain?
Is it some kind of unrest that happens inside?
Does it feel like someone sawing you into million pieces?
Is it like you are being crushed under a mountain?
Is it when you are alive yet you cannot breathe?
What is it?
What is it like?
I can sense a huge crater pulling me inside.
I can feel the lava
Burning me alive.
I can see the inevitable
Wanting to embrace me,
But I’m not ready to leave yet.
No, no,
Not just yet.
There’s so much light I want to see -
So many colors I want to live -
So many dreams I want to chase.
Will someone help me?
Will someone give me some strength?
I want to fight it all -
I feel the urge to.
But the vacuum is sucking me in!
The lava is catching up with me.
The more I want to live,
The more I get sucked in -
To the land of filth, pain and darkness.
The more I want to smile,
The more tears roll down.
Am I the only one who needs to go through so much pain?
Have I been destined to carry everyone’s pain on their behalf?
Can no one share it with me?
I want to break free from everything,
Yet I fear loneliness.
I don’t want to be lonely,
Yet I don’t want to be with anyone.
I want to be with someone
Yet no one is around.
I’m all alone
Yet there is a crowd around me.
I want to breathe
Yet there is no oxygen.
I want to be out in the open,
Yet I don’t want to step out of my cocoon.
I want to come out of the cocoon
Yet I am frightened of the world.
I want to leave it all,
Yet I want to live.
When I want happiness
I have to beg,
But when it comes to pain
I’m blessed with abundance.
All that I’m able to feel
Are hoards of pain!
Always catching up.
Not letting me out of sight
Lest I miss any of it!
Happiness is like an illusion
Peeps at me -
In case I get even a whiff of it
It absolutely disappears,
Lest I smile!
Tears are synonymous with my life
Pain is all I was born to feel
Hurt is all that I must go through
So that life rocks for you.
Very touching lines! We constantly need to spend some time with ourselves and think, where we are heading to. In this materialistic word we are just running...running and running... making money but it can't buy peace and happiness. We know so many people, but have no true friends. We want to know about the whole world, but the truth is that we don't even know ourselves....Internet se pure world se connected, pados mein kaun rehta hai pata nahi. Hazaron hain channel..fir bhi dil belta nahi. Lage raho munna bhai ke starting dialogues. Very true...very meaningful.
ReplyDeleteSpend some time..talk to yourself...and is you feel lost, bring in the change. Thats what we need! Nice to read it again... and reminding, to spend some time with our self.
Okay, you need to talk to me about what's going on with you. You write extremely well, but now I am worried about you!
ReplyDeleteCall or email.. TALK TO ME!!
People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.
ReplyDeletePain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.
That's very touching..all those feelings that u've bottled up inside you have been got on paper very beautifully.
ReplyDeleteIts true that life is not a bed of roses.. but we can always remove the thorns 4om our way... that if we really want to be happy. cause happiness is but a state of mind.. n dont depend on others 2 make u happy.. cause they r prone to disappointing you... Find peace within urself.. u've given people the rite to pile their emotional garbage on2 u. n now that u've realized how miserable u feel when they do that.. its in ur hands 2 stop accepting the garbage. Jus go out n do what's rite 4 u. cause u owe it 2 urself.All the best n live life 2 the fullest.